Friday, December 16, 2011

更新中 ...... 99%

好久没"打扫"我的部落格啦


嗯... 想和一个人说对不起丫


我承认我是个花心的女孩儿


认识我算你倒霉呗 xD


该不该追她的决定权不在于她


在于你


在你告诉我你的心声之前


我老早就知道你总有一天会对我那么说


我选择无语


因为我心虚了


我不是喜欢上了别人


只是对你的感情淡了些.......


也许更淡了......


我心里会很不好受


有种自己是大坏蛋的感觉


对不起啦


我的确像某人说的那样、


变了呢 :)








另外


我等一个人等了好久哇


T T


还是没动静


哭 ~ ~


我答应:


我跟他联络上后


只会上升到好朋友关系


不会有更近一步


!!!!!!!!


拜托啦 /.\








再另外


我个人发现


最近好多人不一样了


(虽然我可能也是其中一个)


但是有个她


真的令我担心了


> <


她把一个秘密告诉了我


关于她的秘密


我看她也是憋在心里不好受才向我吐苦水的吧


/3\"


听到后真的炸到了很多下!!!


真不懂该怎么办


懊恼 ~


我又无法告诉别人


因为我不能让她对我失去信心呐


> O < "


否则我休想再知道她的情况了


唉 (╯﹏╰)


好难受


有人说我变了


变得跟她不好了


不是我不要


是我跟她之间没什么话好讲了


谁能真正体会我的感受?


我想更知道她


可是她可以选择不把她的隐私说出来


我懂!


可是这样一来


我还能跟她谈些什么??!


我就是想知道她的感情事


我想要在她的背后拉住她不让她走歪了


可是当你说她不需要向我报告她的感情事时


我的心被划了一下


她、


曾经是我无所不谈的好姐妹


大小事都与我分享的好朋友


在我们之间没有不能说的秘密的


形影不离的“双胞胎”


我曾经对她敞开心门


说出了一切隐瞒过她的事


可是她现在什么都不对我说了


( ˇˍˇ )


上帝丫


求你听我祷告


帮助我吧


那些的秘密


只有你


不用我说也知道


上帝你亲自看顾保守


我所亲爱的人


* 顺便提一提:



在过57天,本小姐就单身一年啦! 


xDD


开心 ~

YEAH~ I CAN'T WAIT FOREVER  :')




WAITING IS D' HARDEST PART  ><
HAPPY SINGLE LIFE  :D
HEAR MY PRAYERS , O' LORD  x(

Friday, July 29, 2011

I ' m -------> C O N F U S E D

When you're gone
 
The pieces of my heart are missing you
 
When you're gone
 
The face I came to know is missing too
 
When you're gone
 
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
 
I miss you



the day i know you broke up with her

i am sad + happy + confused

i'm sad because i'm worried about you

i'm happy because i don't know why... > <

i'm confused because i don't know why am i happy???

this feeling sucks ~

i don't know whether i still like you

or maybe the one i like is you

S or D ???

but both of them are not mine

i've already lost you long time ago

as for you

i've ignored you

reason :

you told me you like that girl but at the same time you like me too

duh~

don't expect me to accept this

i'm not that generous

i'm selfish

very  selfish

i really wish that i did not ask you that question

and i won't hurt myself

then our relationship won't become further and further

haihsss............. /.\



sometimes i miss you

while

sometimes i miss you

am i "flower-hearted" ?   o.O

i wish that i have a heart made of  steel

[ stainless-steel ]

then i won't be confused by my feelings

am i right ?

伟大的“您” (‵′#)

事发日期: 22-07-2011(五)
事发时间:早上7.15左右
事发地点:“您”的办公室前

XXX衰呗~

一个美丽的早晨

竟给您破坏了啊


看到您就惊心胆跳~

一心只祈祷着你别叫住我

只要行个礼

乖乖地走过

应该不会有事的呱



怎知道

Ah GIRL,来一下..

(⊙v⊙)

 问了一大堆“屎”就算了

还批评我头发叻

您“英明”!





我短发长发又你事了?

我妈咪没觉得我短发有问题啊

我妈咪还说过我短发美呢

我妈咪也没叫我留回长发耶

几时轮到您来管我的头发该短还是长了?





我看你是outdate了吧

挺多人说我短发比较活泼了呢 ^ ^

您的眼睛 / 眼镜也是时候换了吧



最后顺便告诉你

我留回长发不是因为我答应你留

您别太自恋

我是因为明年的芭蕾舞考试而留的

您看清楚

我答应您只是为了敷衍

顺便留给您看的

 

另外

我一有机会

我一定会把我自己变回帅帅の我

拍谢蛤

令您失望了  

: P

I ' m  S o r r y  !!  

x D

Sunday, May 29, 2011

写给我所背叛的她。

在这里向某人道歉,
其实我没有要背叛你的意思,
对不起

也许,
我们会因为这件事,
从此以后不再是朋友,
毕竟是我有错在先,
不过我还是想告诉你:

爱情友情同情
你分清楚了吗 ?

爱情---
是两个人相爱,
不是只有单方面的恋爱。

友情---
是需要两个人互相了解、包容、扶持,
不是充满质疑和埋怨。

同情---
不是爱情,
则是一个人对另一个人的怜悯。

我只是想告诉你,
你对他,
爱情友情还是同情

有时候我看见你对他的态度很差,
这不是对待男朋友的方法。
对你爱的人、爱你的人,
可以温柔些吗?

对不起,
我懂我不该管你们的感情事,
但是我忍不住想说。
你想说我多管闲事、鸡婆、八婆也好,
随你说。
我只希望你在感情方面,
成熟些,
不要那么霸道了,
好吗?

:(


依然是朋友 
情人節的前一天 他離開你身邊
只剩下你無止境的想念
 
那一夜我陪著你 你哭了一整夜
你是否知道 我對他一樣很想念
 
直到有一天 我和他碰面
在那間 我們常去的咖啡店
 
才知道有些感受 我和他誰都不曾說出口
我們之間隱藏了什麼 除了我自己沒人懂
可是你 你怎麼說 你知道後是不是從此避開我
我一樣難過 多希望我們不曾相識過

才知道有些感受 我和他誰都不曾說出口
我們都是最好的朋友 誰會有勇氣去開口
不再哭 不再難過 我們還有好大好大的天空
故事的最後 我們都不曾失去過 什麼
我們依然是朋友
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Back To December
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
Small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why

Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
Then I think about summer all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your loving all I gave you was goodbye

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love
I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door I understand

This is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December turn around and make it all right
I go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

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What am i thinking about..?
Hurmmm...
No idea at all..
Do i still love him or not?
Or i'm just missing that old sweet feeling?
Haizz...
I'm not brave enough to tell you tthat i'm still loving you.. ( maybe..? )
I'm scared... :S


Why i always do wrong desicions...?
Hate myself..
I lose my beloved you,
I lose my chance to MSSM,
I lose all the good things in my life..

SHIT !!!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

My Dream or My Duty ?

One is my Dream .

While the other one is my Duty .

What to do ?

This is the Second time , man !

Although I'm really interested in Ballet ,

But I more appreciate the chance to go MSSM !

Did you guys ever think about my feelings ?

Dude , MSSM !

Think about it ,

How many people in Taiping , Even in Perak have the chance to take part in it ?

This is my first chance ...

What if I don't have another chance next year ?

Can I use money to buy it ?

NO ...

But if I missed the ballet classes ,

I would be scold to hell ...

Anyone or Someone ?

Please stand at my position and teach me how to do ..

:'(




        

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Down..


不知怎么搞的

听着 River Flows In You

sad 的感觉

我在想

我何时才会回到你身边呢

可能吗

也许永远都不可能


你叫我坚持

你说有一天也许会有奇迹出现

但是

真的有可能吗

我渐渐地

想放弃了

我对自己没信心

怎么办

我的心没力气坚持啦

为什么别人的爱情总是那么美好

我的却都不能长久

我好怀念以前

几乎每天晚上睡觉前

我都会把你想一遍

把我们的回忆想一遍

我不想把回忆忘掉

更不想把你忘掉

你的样貌在我记忆中

模糊不清

我真想把你的脸印在我脑里


我们说过的承诺

你记住了哪几个

:')

-你学会骑摩托后第一个载我
-你会跟我在一起一生一世,一辈子,永远
-买情侣戒给我当生日礼物(去年到现在)
-买情侣装
-娶我做老婆

我很白痴吧

每次想起你

水珠会从眼睛内滚出来

心里很不好受